another head loose feel

today was my second interview with Barang Barang(for the PA positon) and it was with thier director.

i wasnt scared at first..but as i was waiting,my nerves start to jump inside.
when i was finally inside,i couldnt have done more stupidly.its like..i didnt really know how to talk and when he introduced himself,i was like..only smiling.i bet that they can tell im super freak out inside.
and when i first started to speak,my throat is like so dry that i sounded like im having some soar throat.
to make up for the bad voice,i had to fake and tell them that i really have bad throat.

but bet deep inside,the director was like.."ya..bad throat~" but he was really nice..coz he had the guy whose sitting next to him,(apparently is the first guy who interview me for this position) to get some drink for me.

and so he answered an overseas call(yea..he's the Barang Barang's director)..and i calmed down inside.

i cant really remember now what the later part of the interview is like.just some more questions and me talking with whatever my brain sends the message.

and when he asked me what question do i wanna ask,his answer to my question is more of sharing of really what entrepreneurs and successful businessmen would talk,rather than answering my question.
but it really enlightened me and i cant help but looked at him with the most impressive manner.

and i think im one the 3 "finalists" they had selected.(oh wow..)
didnt think i stand a high chance but its an interview worth gg.esp with the director's last enlightenment.
and i hope this help with my Tuesday interview,yet with another director.coz that is the job i want.
(i wonder why are e directors so free now..)

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now...i wonder how do you train ur guy to become a potential SNAG aka Sensitive New Age Guy?

i dunno man...sometimes i think boyfriends do have the tendancy to slip into the comfort of being in a relationship with you for sometime,and sometimes take things for granted.

ok lemme put this right.Jason is indeed a nice bf,but he too is no connection with what Yng and I classified under the DoDo Bird population.(that's my view)

DoDo Birds are extinct species,and so boyfriends that belong to that classification are of coz rare.

Description:
Sweet..and very sweet.Sensitive but not overly sensitive.Mature yet adorably childish.also means know how to play the kinda right role at the right time.never forgets to plant simple sweet thoughts every now and then,AND translate them to actions.
and i dun mean they have to do something great or expensive.just simple sweet lil things in life that plant smile to your face.
Always feel so secure and comfortable to be with,and hardly..and really hardly makes you upset with the stupid things guys do.

one very sweet example is Andy.Yvonne's bf.why she lucky chick.

true,like Yng said,Dodo birds not perfect too.and the only reason that they seem so perfect is becoz their gf completely accept their shortcomings and all.well..it always take 2 hands to clap.

and..what i really wanna tell Jason off are e following few things.

1.
I hope he can blardy hell kick the habit of being late.he is like forever late for most dates and im always waiting.
i dunno..true is i reached early most of the times,but isnt it just something guys should NEVER forget to do that they should get outta their house earlier and reach slightly early before the agreed time to meet?(and let alone being late!)
i always try to tolerate the times i have to wait for him,but for once..just for once dear..cant you try to be early and let this be a habit?
i really DUN like to wait,especially for guys.

2.
I dun NEED fancy restaurants and all the things that comes big in numerical figures.
yes..i understand how you feel inside,and how much you wanted to get the good things for me.
but..again..im not born pampered or rich.i am not born dining in those restaurants and not born drinking coffee and tea at cafes.im not born sleep in the soft mattress and not born slashing the cards at the stores.
that really means i dun need to have all those all the time.
Jason is like..getting so ambitious these days..and i dunno if he will really understand how insecure i do feel when i fear he is addicted to working for money at the expenses of OUR time.

it can be so simple like...once a while..pop me a small bear i like..or even things like Winnie the Pooh tissues(for my own collection;) ) or slipping what..small secret notes or what in my wallet or bag?you know..the VERY lil things in life is what most gals fancy,right??

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we had MY lunch at the Great World City's Food Junction this afternoon.
he moved in before me,and i was like..telling him off.saying in any cases,he should like sit AFTER me?(this is the basic of the gentlemen codes,yea?)
and we sat down...he just flipped his newpapers and told me to get what i want.
i was like *_*!
sigh...its not that i expect him to pay for my meals la..but you know..once in a while..its really very nice for ur bf to ask what would you like and gets it for you, OR just simply he accompany you to get your food even if he is not eating.
my mood really flipped!

happy families monopolized the food court.2 perfect families with kids sat on the next two tables beside ours.
and the father next to my table would perhaps be one of the Dodo birds too.(well..at least from what i had observed)
such a nice father AND husband.
he went to get dessert for his kids and came back.and he ASKED his wife again,"Darling,you want anything?"

and there i snapped Jason with this sentence,"such a perfect husband and daddy,where to find?" and we got off.

now this obviously makes him upset but too,i was not happy with how he kinda really takes things for granted bit by bit lately.
sometimes..gals just need to be pamper with lil love actions like that!(right,ladies?)

but while we both kept quiet and took the bus...i was like.."oh shit..i have done it again."
deep inside i know i must have been like...too demanding too.perhaps Jason would find me too demanding these days.so inside me was like a debate on "Mine Rights and My Wrongs"

when we reached home(my home)..thank god we were alright again.was melted with his hugs and apologies though i have said nothing.
so we spend a lil time in my house to cool down from the atrocious poisonous heat outside.i like it when we did housework together~ :D
then i lazed on the bed for a while after he is gone(of coz after i had bath la.)my head feels loose nowadays.

oh...i finally gave him that watch.yes..i did not wait till our 11th month anniversary.but..it kinda meets that <3 Dates From Now>
i would say the kinda shock and totally touch look on his face looks ugly.haha.
i know he wanted a watch and its been in my plan since like dunno when,that i wanted to get a couple watch for our 1 year.
but it wasnt quite a couple watch..well it isnt our 1 year too.
think i have got better things in mind now.

but hey...now..i just pray i makes no hiccups for that Tuesday interview AND~i would score that job.
pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls.